Forever fleeting

I know you~
I've glimpsed you hiding behind the walls 
that surround my heart.
I've waited for you 
I've waited to see
If you are the one~ 
who will see me.

One brick at a time 
I've watched your hands
Take apart these walls.
Still, you remain within the shadows.
I've felt you watching me
but when I glance your way
You vanish with the breeze

You're here again
and still I can't touch you
You stay just outside my reach
Your presence warms me
but in turning to see you
I am blinded by the sun

I feel safe having you near
I enjoy the thoughts I have of you
I playfully whisper to you
No answer in return.
Why do you hide from me?

 Will you need me~ 
like I feel I need you?

I walk in the direction of your prints
 left in the sand

They never end
I don't understand?

I want to know you~
 Do you know me?

I thought I knew you

I looked for you today
Of course you weren't to be seen
I remembered what is what like
To hold you in my dreams.

I wanted to tell you something 
I had hope to say to you one day
Now it seems rather silly
In a wrong moment ~ different day ~ kinda way

If I had known yesterday
What I have learned today
Would tomorrow look different to me
In any sort of way?

I would like to think it might have
I would like to say "Yes"
But, these are the things I discuss
Only with myself

I thought I remembered what you smelled like.
Silly, I know.
But to remember what  the scent of you brings...
Is probably a thought I shouldn't have.

To have a moment with you
I would try to steal two
And then where would we be?
Would we begin a new?
Or start where we left off?
Too many thoughts?
Too many thoughts not thought.

If I could re-arrange
Or change what once was
I would hope to remember what now is.
So that I might undo
What had been done.
To the man I once knew.
No worries
It confuses me too