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Walk with me

Come, take a walk with me  side by side Walk through the woods Checking out blue sky  Listen to the trees as they bend with the wind Watch the birds fly, land, then take off again. I'll wait for you to feel safe to share What's been locked away deep  within Your soul. I'll be your strength I'll hold you up I'll help you see Just how strong you are~ Can be. Let's walk  with the sand under our feet Let's feel free Let fear go No more holding on to what was No more hiding away No more crying for those who  didn't stay. Come, let's walk side by side let's feel ~  Freedom  floating with the wind  dancing with stars sleeping on a cloud Feeling warmth from the sun Let's walk You and I Let's fly  where others won't go. Let's just be You and me I'll hold you up, ~if you should stumble. Though I know you won't You were meant to be this strong Take off the blinders and let

I am Lovable

I am Lovable I live within a darkened room deep below a well guarded castle.  Outside my door stands Vulnerable. Vulnerable carries a long sharp sword he has named it pain. Pain is the key~to everything. No one has yet been able to get close to me if they try Pain is who they will meet. Beyond the room where Vulnerable resides   a spiral staircase is seen We call her Love. Miles and miles in length she is and at the top outside her door ~Lies resides. Lies covers the floor ready to grab anyone untrue Anyone who has managed to get past the gate. The gate we call Trust. Trust isn't easy to get past. Trust is strong, runs deep, and holds true. Trust stands behind desire. Knowing Desire needs to be watched. Desire is our drawbridge she keeps all of us held tight within these walls determined to keep us safe. Trying to keep others out. Desire has weaknesses she knows about. Passion is the moat that circles these

Taken too soon

Park bench built for two How odd I sit and wait for you. I know you won't come You never do But, I'll sit and wait and hope today is the day you do. Sounds silly when I say it out loud "Just once,  I'd like, to not see your face in a crowd." I can envision you anywhere I can envision you with anyone. It's seeing you with me ~ That's the key! I hear laughter and I have to look Sadly, it wasn't you. I smell your cologne and follow the scent It leads me somewhere I've never been. I read a sign that reminds me of you Crazy, everything brings me to you ~ but you. Did you have to go? I've wished you back a million times Then I read the note that I've held onto for so long ~ "Taken too soon but never forgotten" That's still as far as I've gotten.

Depression takes hold

How can I explain this pain to you? It's as if you are standing at the edge of a cliff but nothing is behind you nothing in front of you and darkness is falling  down on you.  There is no room to sit The ground is breaking beneath your feet. You can't move! You scream but you don't know if anyone  will hear you. You don't know if anyone will  look for you. The terrible things that leak  from your mind Telling you "You're out of time." Suddenly there isn't enough air to breathe. Your lungs become hungry. Your eyes dry Your throat empty No sounds are allowed to pass. Your heart beats~  but with each beat It's a punch to your lungs That already can not inflate. These are the feelings I feel When depression takes hold of me.

Depression smiles

I was raised hearing the phrase "Laugh and the world laughs with you Cry and you cry alone." I believed it I lived it And yet, I feel alone. I made them laugh and when I did They stayed. When the laughter stopped They went away. How could I not believe such a phrase? I tested the theory: I cried!  They said "I don't know what to do if it is you that isn't smiling." Sad but true some don't know what to do does that mean they shouldn't try? So, I dried my eyes and only cry when the world isn't watching. A lonely place to be. A comedian's dream is to have you laugh But who makes sure  The comedian laughs too?

Depression sleeps

No one will say  ~ I'm not enough No one will say  ~They aren't comforted by my touch. My Dreams are where I am able to hide... from the sting of words, and all that hate within their eyes. I tried to be what they wanted  me to be. But, even then, They turned on me. So, In my dreams I lock them out I hide away  I shut out all doubt. I'm who I think I want to be When no one else is judging me. No one can hurt me in here. No one,  In here, ignores ~my fears.

Fighting depression

Everyday,  I live with depression. In every way I fend it off. Some days it creeps up on me Other days~ It hits me full force in my face It's an all consuming darkness It brings with it pain and despair. It engulfs my lungs It pokes holes in my heart Drains my soul. Tells my brain "You are worthless!" It's as if I am fighting to close a door But, depression is almost as strong as me Somedays, it's stronger than me. I'll hide away So none can see Just how much pain Depression can be. I don't want everyone to see How really small and insignificant  I feel to be.

Dark spaces

Excuses drip from the walls thick as molasses Lies cover the floor waiting to be believed Shadows dance around the light  that has snuck in through broken windows. Dust covers the frames that once held smiling faces An echo of a child's laugh floats through the air. If not for the echo There would be no sound  anywhere. The spiders and flies  took their dance elsewhere Even this place is to dark  for them. No soul left to fill the void No whisper of any tenant  at all. This place they call Misery~ No one should want to be. It tries to hold on to others  It tries to belong Misery loves company "They say" But no company would take Misery on!

Lost Lovers

I wanna believe I wanna see I wanna know There is happily to be. Where do you look When you want to find That next challenge  for your heart  to be blind? You know that feeling... When they first see you? Those eyes light up Those lips part A slight lick of their lips  and you find... This is the moment This is the time This is the one  always on your mind. Where are they though? Where is that moment to be? You finding yourself  Looking too closely? "They" say when you aren't looking you will find the one who will blow your mind. "They" say a lot of things! Some are fun to say too. Some just make me  sad. The one about  "Letting them go  and hope they find their way...back" That one happens too much Makes me wonder... Why they just can't stay.

Silence

Let us sit and enjoy the silence Hear the water rushing by us to give the river all the pain inside us Yes, lets enjoy the silence. Watching the leaves as they fall to the ground Then carried away by the sound of the wind racing from tree to tree If only the wind could carry me. Hearing the birds as they squawk to  one another Then something that sounds like laughter ~ makes me shudder. To fly through the sky To have wings Then I could do anything. Lets just sit and enjoy the silence no cars rushing by us no phones squeaking at us time could just be still I could tell you how I feel. You have to go...? Too many calls Too many to dos  I am just one of too many things you must do. Then I'll just sit here and hear the silence. Wishing Time hadn't flew by us.