Depression smiles

I was raised hearing the phrase
"Laugh and the world laughs with you
Cry and you cry alone."

I believed it
I lived it
And yet, I feel alone.

I made them laugh
and when I did
They stayed.
When the laughter stopped
They went away.
How could I not believe such a phrase?

I tested the theory:
I cried! 
They said
"I don't know what to do
if it is you
that isn't smiling."

Sad but true
some don't know what to do
does that mean they shouldn't try?

So, I dried my eyes
and only cry
when the world isn't watching.

A lonely place to be.

A comedian's dream is to have you laugh
But who makes sure 
The comedian
laughs too?