Finding strength

Jesus, may I please come home?
I want to be near you and feel your loving touch
No one here has loved me that much

Jesus, I've tried to have them hear
I asked them to stay near
They didn't believe what I had to say
They closed their hearts
They said it wasn't true
"No man of God would do such a thing to you"

The tears that fell that day
Burned Deeper
than any I've cried ~ to this day.

I went to your house
 asked to be free
They said, "pray"
They said God would save me, 
someday

Jesus, can that day be today?

I'm just one child
I'm only one voice
You said I had a choice
I choose to come home
I choose to leave this place

How can you say "Stay"?
Why do you tell me
"You are stronger than you know"
Show me what I am to do
Let me see
What is it you believe 
is so special
about me?





Stay...You are stronger than you know


I wanted to die that day
I wanted the pain I was feeling
to go away

No one heard me 
when I would say
"I don't like him
keep him away"

To them I was just a child
and
what did a child know, anyway?

I knew I felt dirty
I knew I felt fear
I knew I couldn't stand
to have him near.

Every piece of me
was disappearing.

 I retreated into my own space
I lived within my own confines
~trying to decide
how to leave this pain behind

Sleep was my way of escape
oh how wonderful would it be
if I could sleep for eternity?

I swallowed the pills
and I laid down to sleep
waiting for peace to comfort me

There was this light
and a little girl

She looked like me when I still smiled
She took my hand
we walked for awhile
 "You must stay." she said

There is a reason I'm still here
though it isn't always quite clear.
But these are the words I continue to hear
and will continue to show...
"You are stronger than you know"













Pinky Promise




I pinky promise 
I will stay.

Once upon a while ago
I made a choice that I had to go
I couldn't stand the pain any more
I was embarrassed to be seen
I was afraid of what you might think
If you knew what had happened to me.

I carried the shame of someone else's evil
I carried the guilt of another's bad deed
He walked around with his head in the clouds
While I shuffled with my eyes to the ground.

I couldn't stand to feel the way I was feeling
pain pulled at my heart
pain tugged at my soul
pain suffocated my will
pain destroyed my hope.

So thoughts to end it all
creeped in
No one would miss me
It would be better for them if I wasn't here.
Oh the things you think 
When you're deep in fear.

So I gave up
I swallowed them all
I drifted away
I heard a small girls voice call
"Stay, you are stronger than you know."
Curiosity seems to have gotten the better of me.
I wanted to know just what she did see.

And what do you know...
Though life isn't easy
I am stronger
than the pain
that tried to consume me!




Suicidesso far in 2016 34720. Average yearly stats for suicides is 30,000
suicide claims more deaths than accidents, homicides, and war combined. And many cases of suicide, particularly in the elderly, go completely undetected and unaccounted.

Suicide is the SECOND leading cause of death for ages 10-24.
Suicide is the SECOND leading cause of death for college-age youth and ages 12-18.
More teenagers and young adults die from suicide than from cancer, heart disease, AIDS, birth defects, stroke, pneumonia, influenza, and chronic lung disease, COMBINED.
Each day in our nation, there are an average of over 5,240 attempts by young people grades 7-12.

Four out of Five teens who attempt suicide have given clear warning signs