Fighting depression

Everyday, 

I live with depression.

In every way

I fend it off.

Some days it creeps up on me

Other days~

It hits me full force in my face

It's an all consuming darkness

It brings with it

pain and despair.

It engulfs my lungs

It pokes holes in my heart

Drains my soul.

Tells my brain

"You are worthless!"

It's as if I am fighting to close a door

But, depression is almost as strong as me

Somedays, it's stronger than me.

I'll hide away

So none can see

Just how much pain

Depression can be.

I don't want everyone to see

How really

small and insignificant 

I feel to be.

Dark spaces

Excuses drip from the walls thick as molasses

Lies cover the floor waiting to be believed

Shadows dance around the light 

that has snuck in through

broken windows.

Dust covers the frames that once held smiling faces

An echo of a child's laugh

floats through the air.

If not for the echo

There would be no sound 

anywhere.

The spiders and flies 

took their dance elsewhere

Even this place is too dark 

for them.

No soul left to fill the void

No whisper of any tenant 

at all.

This place they call Misery~

No one should want to be.

It tries to hold on to others 

It tries to belong

Misery loves company

"They say"

But no company would take Misery on!

Lost Lovers

I wanna believe

I wanna see

I wanna know

There is happily

to be.

Where do you look

When you want to find

That next challenge 

for your heart 

to be blind?

You know that feeling...

When they first see you?

Those eyes light up

Those lips part

A slight lick of their lips 

and you find...

This is the moment

This is the time

This is the one 

always on your mind.

Where are they though?

Where is that moment to be?

You finding yourself 

Looking too closely?

"They" say when you aren't looking

you will find the one

who will blow your mind.

"They" say a lot of things!

Some are fun to say too.

Some just make me 

sad.

The one about 

"Letting them go 

and hope they find their way...back"

That one happens too much

Makes me wonder...

Why they just can't stay.