Lost Lovers

I wanna believe

I wanna see

I wanna know

There is happily

to be.

Where do you look

When you want to find

That next challenge 

for your heart 

to be blind?

You know that feeling...

When they first see you?

Those eyes light up

Those lips part

A slight lick of their lips 

and you find...

This is the moment

This is the time

This is the one 

always on your mind.

Where are they though?

Where is that moment to be?

You finding yourself 

Looking too closely?

"They" say when you aren't looking

you will find the one

who will blow your mind.

"They" say a lot of things!

Some are fun to say too.

Some just make me 

sad.

The one about 

"Letting them go 

and hope they find their way...back"

That one happens too much

Makes me wonder...

Why they just can't stay.

If only

It's not that I miss you or what we had

It's the thought of what was

and not really understanding

was it that good

or really that bad?

Did the light burn too bight for a short period of time

Or was there no light to speak of,

and the whole time...I was just blind?

Did you ever see me as I saw you?

Fun, funny, beautiful...

was that even you?

Did I see you or were you what I wanted
to see?

When you said you loved me

was it real?

Were you with me
 truly? 

Or just with me
 so you weren't alone?

I hate that when I look at you

I can't help but smile

I lose my breath for a short while

I feel as if I am flying.

Those things never happened to you?

At least not when you looked at me.

I don't really miss you

Just wish I could have really seen

Now I hide from anyone

who might want to fall for me

I no longer trust

I no longer hope

I want to just be

And be happy with me.

I don't want to doubt

I don't want to hurt

I don't want to believe...

Is there anyone for me?

I burned too bright towards you 

and I'm sure it was blinding.

I can no longer read your eyes
I no longer see you smiling
It's time to turn away
And stop trying.

Silence

Let us sit and enjoy the silence

Hear the water rushing by us

to give the river

all the pain inside us

Yes, lets enjoy the silence.

Watching the leaves as they fall to the ground

Then carried away by the sound

of the wind racing

from tree to tree

If only the wind could carry me.

Hearing the birds as they squawk to 

one another

Then something that sounds

like laughter ~

makes me shudder.

To fly through the sky

To have wings

Then I could do anything.

Lets just sit and enjoy the silence

no cars rushing by us

no phones squeaking at us

time could just be still

I could tell you how I feel.

You have to go...?

Too many calls

Too many to dos 

I am just one of too many

things you must do.

Then I'll just sit here, listening to the silence.

Wishing Time hadn't flew by us.