Taken too soon

Park bench built for two

How odd

I sit and wait for you.

I know you won't come

You never do

But, I'll sit and wait

and hope

today is the day, you do.

Sounds silly when I say it out loud

"Just once,

 I'd like to not look for your face in a crowd."

I can envision you anywhere

I can envision you with anyone.

It's seeing you with me ~

That's the key!

I hear laughter and I have to look

Sadly, it's no longer you.

I smell your cologne and follow the scent

It leads me to someone, but not to you.

I read a sign that reminds me of you

Crazy, everything brings me to you ~

but, You.

Did you have to go?

I've wished you back a million times

Then I read the note that

I've held onto for so long ~

"Taken too soon but never forgotten"

That's still as far as I've gotten.

Fighting depression

Everyday, 

I live with depression.

In every way

I fend it off.

Some days it creeps up on me

Other days~

It hits me full force in my face

It's an all consuming darkness

It brings with it

pain and despair.

It engulfs my lungs

It pokes holes in my heart

Drains my soul.

Tells my brain

"You are worthless!"

It's as if I am fighting to close a door

But, depression is almost as strong as me

Somedays, it's stronger than me.

I'll hide away

So none can see

Just how much pain

Depression can be.

I don't want everyone to see

How really

small and insignificant 

I feel to be.

Dark spaces

Excuses drip from the walls thick as molasses

Lies cover the floor waiting to be believed

Shadows dance around the light 

that has snuck in through

broken windows.

Dust covers the frames that once held smiling faces

An echo of a child's laugh

floats through the air.

If not for the echo

There would be no sound 

anywhere.

The spiders and flies 

took their dance elsewhere

Even this place is too dark 

for them.

No soul left to fill the void

No whisper of any tenant 

at all.

This place they call Misery~

No one should want to be.

It tries to hold on to others 

It tries to belong

Misery loves company

"They say"

But no company would take Misery on!