If only

It's not that I miss you or what we had

It's the thought of what was

and not really understanding

was it that good

or really that bad?

Did the light burn too bight for a short period of time

Or was there no light to speak of,

and the whole time...I was just blind?

Did you ever see me as I saw you?

Fun, funny, beautiful...

was that even you?

Did I see you or were you what I wanted
to see?

When you said you loved me

was it real?

Were you with me
 truly? 

Or just with me
 so you weren't alone?

I hate that when I look at you

I can't help but smile

I lose my breath for a short while

I feel as if I am flying.

Those things never happened to you?

At least not when you looked at me.

I don't really miss you

Just wish I could have really seen

Now I hide from anyone

who might want to fall for me

I no longer trust

I no longer hope

I want to just be

And be happy with me.

I don't want to doubt

I don't want to hurt

I don't want to believe...

Is there anyone for me?

I burned too bright towards you 

and I'm sure it was blinding.

I can no longer read your eyes
I no longer see you smiling
It's time to turn away
And stop trying.

Silence

Let us sit and enjoy the silence

Hear the water rushing by us

to give the river

all the pain inside us

Yes, lets enjoy the silence.

Watching the leaves as they fall to the ground

Then carried away by the sound

of the wind racing

from tree to tree

If only the wind could carry me.

Hearing the birds as they squawk to 

one another

Then something that sounds

like laughter ~

makes me shudder.

To fly through the sky

To have wings

Then I could do anything.

Lets just sit and enjoy the silence

no cars rushing by us

no phones squeaking at us

time could just be still

I could tell you how I feel.

You have to go...?

Too many calls

Too many to dos 

I am just one of too many

things you must do.

Then I'll just sit here, listening to the silence.

Wishing Time hadn't flew by us.

Thinking of you

I’ve been thinking of you!

Thinking how blue your eyes are

How red your lips

How tender yet strong your finger tips.

The strength of your arms when I’m wrapped inside

The taste of your tongue when it meets mine.

I’ve been thinking of you~

I’ve been dreaming of touching you

Dreaming of having you touch me

Getting all excited just thinking how much fun it would be

I know where I would linger the most

Where my fingers would trace

While enjoying that look on your face.

I’ve been thinking of you~

I’ve seen where you would touch me 

I’ve guided your fingers to those places

Feeling you touch me as I ask

Feeling how strongly you react

Hearing your breathing take a turn

Feeling the spinning of the room

Having your body so close to mine

Moving in rhythm

No care for time.

I’ve been thinking of you~

Lying next to me

Tired and yet still hungry

Ready to take another spin

Wondering how to begin

Looking me up from head to toe

Watching me glisten seeing me glow

I’ve been thinking of you~

Those amazing lips

That sweet tongue

Another taste...

Couldn’t stop at just one

Out of breath but don’t want to rest

Touching you every inch

With my fingers, tongue and lips

Have to have these thoughts come true!

Lover, I’ve been thinking of you~

Seasons change

The light that was once so bright

Is hiding behind the night.

The stars that danced

Now stationary

The moon

Has looked the other way.

Water falling from sad eyes.

Lips forgetting how to smile.

Arms with no one to embrace.

A Heart slowing down its pace.

Being lost and unfound

Unsure of shaky ground.

Standing alone, 

amongst the trees,

Waiting for water to cover me.

No warmth between these hills

No direction to follow

 For one moment may I show sorrow?

Mountains hiding an unknown tomorrow.

Waiting to know what I have forgotten

Hoping to see past the night

Looking for solid ground.

Asking anyone

Find me.

That moment

That moment

when…

 Eyes meet

Lips touch

Heart beats 

too much

Breath too short

Then too fast

We want it to always last

That moment

when…

We can't let go

We walk away...too slow

We always look back

To see you once more.

That moment

When…

We feel there's no way

Any other could get in the way

Make us feel better

Then we do right now, Today!

That moment

When…

Promises seem real

Words are meant

Deeds are done.

Seeing each other, 

Sparks fly

That moment

When…

Without you

Isn't real

Tomorrow comes

Because of us.

That moment 

When…

I could miss you this much!

Wasn't to be

It wasn't what I thought ~at all

There was no writing on the wall

It seemed to want to be held

It shone so bright

I was under its spell

The red that glowed

Seemed to fill the room

All from a flowers bloom?

But as I approached

To breathe in the sight

I noticed a dimmer light

Thorns drawn

Blood flows

Everyone had to know?

All but me

It wasn't to be

This rose was for Another

Or, was this how it's to be?

Capture me in your beauty

Fill my senses with your perfume

Ask me to reach for you

Then open up a wound?

I will go

And leave you here

If it's another you wait for.

But know~ 

I will heal

And we may meet again

But your beauty, 
for me,
Will have faded by then.

Fight nature?

I wrestled with the wind

After awhile 

I knew I had lost.

The ocean was of no help at all

It too only pushed me around.

Nothing left in the palm of my hand

Another fight lost

I yelled at the clouds

But they only laughed and ran away

I screamed at the sun

It fried me!

I tried to move a mountain

It wouldn't fight back

I kicked at the rocks

They stumbled away

They too didn't want to stay.

As night wrapped around me and stole my fight

I gave into its selfish plight.

"Tomorrow will be better," it said

You can't be angry any more

You no longer even know

What you are fighting for.

I allowed the breeze to take my revenge

The stars then danced for me

"Everything isn't what it seems"

I let these words settle in

As I laid my head against the stone

The wind came back to cool me

The oceans mid-night roar, soothed me

They were right

There are reasons to stay and fight

And there are reasons to let go

Which ever is decided

All I need to know

Be brave, stand tall, stay true

Nature will run its course

And Nature always wins.