Wrapped within

I wouldn't want to be your coffee 

for fear I'd burn your lips

I wouldn't want to be the book you read

though you gently stroke the pages

with your finger tips

I would want to be your sheets

if I had one wish...

I want to be the one who you take off all your clothes for

and watch you crawl within

excited, soft and exposed

feel you rolling around and take me 

within your tight grasp

feel you tangle up with me

see your smile... 

so relaxed

I want to be the reason you tell all your friends

"I can't go out,

I'm all wrapped up within"

to see you so peaceful

to watch you smile

to know it is I

who warms you

for awhile

to feel your lips brush against me

to feel your heart beat

next to me

to know you sleep so gently

because of me

Ya, I wanna be your sheets!

In the shadows

Do you know how it feels 

to be

embraced by the shadows?

You think the fun is in the light?

but in the darkness

we are invisible

You don't want to see

what hides out in here

Takes a man without fear

to look beyond the light

and feel what hides

within the night.

In here there are no eyes to see.

in here no ears to hear.

steps taken so lightly~

sound swallowed

by silence

not wanting to be heard.

You wouldn't want to venture in

for fear it would consume you

The shadows hide behind open doors

they sneak up behind you

Don't turn 

you won't find them

the shadows 

find you.

Free me

There's a wall around my heart 

its been there for awhile~

It keeps me strong!

My wall fights off the fears

My wall fends off the tears

My wall

 keeps me from wanting...

My heart beats

for no-one 

but to keep the breath

within my chest

The scars are what I have 

to show

I was once 

 a fighter

I've beaten so many monsters

~alone

I've accepted this situation

as my own.

I've accepted 

how I got here.

My wall allows me to see

but no longer to feel

am I missing something?

No one stronger than I

has approached my wall,

and if they ever had,

they turned away too soon.

they didn't fight or ask to see

what a wall so tall could be hiding 

from all.

For no one has tried 

to break down my wall

to shine a light into the darkness.

for if they had

they just might see...

  A girl with a broken heart

waiting to be seen.

Oh my, Yes please

Oh my God, 

It's been awhile

Everywhere you touched

Screamed "Yes"

for Miles

My toes just curled...

Oh, you've done that before?

for me, that was new.

My legs haven't tightened so much

Really?
 you do have a magic touch.

"Um, may we do it again?"

Of course, yes please...

that was amazing
yes, yes I'll squeeze

Oh wait, don't let go

I think I'm still 

~reacting~ 

We should make a note 

to go there again...

Wait, what?

You believe once is enough?

I think you're wrong!

I'd like to dispute...

 I think I'd like another
No, I know I want another
Lets get real close
touch me here
Oh yes for sure there
can you get closer still?

O'come on

I need you 

at least once more

Really, You give in?
I so enjoy the way you tease.

Am I that easy?

Oh, you're just enjoying what you've done!

Either way

What an amazing way

to "play" today!

Whisper to you

I don't whisper to you

so others can't hear.

I whisper so that my lips 

will bring you near.

I whisper 

so once you're near

I may know your desire.

Breathe in your lust.

share a tender moment 

of 

passion between us.

I whisper

so that I may see

that look in your eyes...

~eager

Yes, be eager.

For you will see

just how eager 

our passion can be

I'll press my lips to you

~a whisper too close?

It's just what we need

body heat

It burns from me

do you feel it too?

Then close your eyes 

and

Let me whisper to you

All is not gone

I say I don't need you 
~When you forget to call
I say I didn't want you
~When you decided to end it all

I thought that I once loved you
~You told me I was wrong.
You said,
"There's more to love 
than what we had going on"

I once believed I needed you
~You showed me that I didn't.
I hoped you would come back to me
~Then remembered why you wouldn't

I couldn't forget about you for the longest time
~Then one day I realized
You hadn't been on my mind

A smile appeared
knowing you were gone
~How weird.
I didn't need you at all.

Try not to stare

I wonder

what would you do

If I asked to slowly undress you?

Standing there in a suit

so well dressed 

so refined...

I've already undressed you in my mind

I've imagined what that shirt

looks like on the floor.

What's underneath,

will I get to explore?

May I pretty please

trace the lines 

from 

the muscles in your neck 

to the bottom 

of your behind?

Oh, if you please,

just the thought

brings me to my knees.

Lets continue

lets move on

the pants you have

shouldn't be left on

I'll just un-button here 

un-zip down to there

let them fall

mmm, now there...

We are getting to the fun

we are almost there

silly me...

I'll try not to stare

I take that back

I promise nothing

I've brought you this far

Now give me something

I'll leave nothing to waste

lets finish the rest...

In under a second

I'll be out of this dress!

Pinky Promise

I pinky promise 

I will stay.

Once upon a while ago
I made a choice that I had to go
I couldn't stand the pain any more
I was embarrassed to be seen
I was afraid of what you might think
If you knew what had happened to me.

I carried the shame of someone else's evil
I carried the guilt of another's bad deed
He walked around with his head in the clouds
While I shuffled with my eyes to the ground.

I couldn't stand to feel the way I was feeling
pain pulled at my heart
pain tugged at my soul
pain suffocated my will
pain destroyed my hope.

So thoughts to end it all
creeped in
No one would miss me
It would be better for them ~ if I wasn't here.
Oh the things you think 
when you're deep in fear.

So I gave up
I swallowed them all
I drifted away.
I heard a small girls voice call
"Stay, you are stronger than you know."
Curiosity seems to have gotten the better of me.
I wanted to know just what she did see.

And what do you know...
Though life isn't easy
I am stronger than the pain
that tried to consume me!

Suicidesso far in 2016 34720. Average yearly stats for suicides is 30,000

suicide claims more deaths than accidents, homicides, and war combined. And many cases of suicide, particularly in the elderly, go completely undetected and unaccounted.

Suicide is the SECOND leading cause of death for ages 10-24.

Suicide is the SECOND leading cause of death for college-age youth and ages 12-18.

More teenagers and young adults die from suicide than from cancer, heart disease, AIDS, birth defects, stroke, pneumonia, influenza, and chronic lung disease, COMBINED.

Each day in our nation, there are an average of over 5,240 attempts by young people grades 7-12.

Four out of Five teens who attempt suicide have given clear warning signs

Find me

I think I've lost something.

I felt that feeling 

something is missing

But I couldn't say

what?

I sat too long

 in hopes...

I would remember

just what 

had gone away.

I stood up

to walk around

that feeling of loss

wouldn't go away.

I stared out the window

hoping my mind

would reach out and find

~something

I tried to distracted my thoughts

by not thinking

"what could be missing?"

Maybe, it would find me.

That didn't work well.

The loss was heavy on my mind

I needed to know

"what have I left behind?"

It was like a black hole 

had filled the space 

where memories

had once been placed.

The struggle my thoughts 

put to my mind

made me wonder

was it me I had left behind?

I live in a world where my thoughts are my own

I haven't shared my dreams 

with anyone.

I've built a safe around my self 

where even I have no key.

Maybe the something I have forgotten

is 

me?

Your soul to keep

I want to float:
 with the wind
I want to sail 
on top of the ocean,
glide next to the waves
before their 
anger is broken.

I want to feel:
the beat of a warm heart
pounding within my chest
to a rhythm 
that knows no pain.

I want to touch:
beauty in a kiss
tears of joy
happiness in love
a kind mind
a true embrace.

I want to hear:
lost words
never spoken
promises that will
never be broken.

I want to fly:

spread unseen wings
feel the sun heat each feather
warm my blood 
lift my soul
inhale, breath,
jump
I'll fly 

Glass heart

A heart of glass

 easily broken

Lips tender

beg to kiss

Eyes moist

tears holding on to fall

Soft skin

  wants to be touched

Fingers unsure

to reach for love

Bright soul

hiding behind dark walls

Loving someone

shouldn't be so hard.