When We Listen

Everyday,  I live with depression. In every way I fend it off. Some days it creeps up on me Other days~ It hits me full force in my face It's an all consuming darkness It brings with it pain and despair. It engulfs my lungs It pokes holes in my heart Drains my soul. Tells my brain "You are worthless!" It's as if I am fighting to close a door But, depression is almost as strong as me Somedays, it's stronger than me. I'll hide away So none can see Just how much pain Depression can be. I don't want everyone to see How really small and insignificant  I feel to be.

Excuses drip from the walls thick as molasses Lies cover the floor waiting to be believed Shadows dance around the light  that has snuck in through broken windows. Dust covers the frames that once held smiling faces An echo of a child's laugh floats through the air. If not for the echo There would be no sound  anywhere. The spiders and flies  took their dance elsewhere Even this place is to dark  for them. No soul left to fill the void No whisper of any tenant  at all. This place they call Misery~ No one should want to be. It tries to hold on to others  It tries to belong Misery loves company "They say" But no company would take Misery on!

I wanna believe I wanna see I wanna know There is happily to be. Where do you look When you want to find That next challenge  for your heart  to be blind? You know that feeling... When they first see you? Those eyes light up Those lips part A slight lick of their lips  and you find... This is the moment This is the time This is the one  always on your mind. Where are they though? Where is that moment to be? You finding yourself  Looking too closely? "They" say when you aren't looking you will find the one who will blow your mind. "They" say a lot of things! Some are fun to say too. Some just make me  sad. The one about  "Letting them go  and hope they find their way...back" That one happens too much Makes me wonder... Why they just can't stay.

Let us sit and enjoy the silence Hear the water rushing by us to give the river all the pain inside us Yes, lets enjoy the silence. Watching the leaves as they fall to the ground Then carried away by the sound of the wind racing from tree to tree If only the wind could carry me. Hearing the birds as they squawk to  one another Then something that sounds like laughter ~ makes me shudder. To fly through the sky To have wings Then I could do anything. Lets just sit and enjoy the silence no cars rushing by us no phones squeaking at us time could just be still I could tell you how I feel. You have to go...? Too many calls Too many to dos  I am just one of too many things you must do. Then I'll just sit here, listening to the silence. Wishing Time hadn't flew by us.

I’ve been thinking of you! Thinking how blue your eyes are How red your lips How tender yet strong your finger tips. The strength of your arms when I’m wrapped inside The taste of your tongue when it meets mine. I’ve been thinking of you~ I’ve been dreaming of touching you Dreaming of having you touch me Getting all excited just thinking how much fun it would be I know where I would linger the most Where my fingers would trace While enjoying that look on your face. I’ve been thinking of you~ I’ve seen where you would touch me  I’ve guided your fingers to those places Feeling you touch me as I ask Feeling how strongly you react Hearing your breathing take a turn Feeling the spinning of the room Having your body so close to mine Moving in rhythm No care for time. I’ve been thinking of you~ Lying next to me Tired and yet still hungry Ready to take another spi