When We Listen

I am Lovable I live within a darkened room deep below a well guarded castle.  Outside my door stands Vulnerable. Vulnerable carries a long sharp sword he has named it pain. Pain is the key~to everything. No one has yet been able to get close to me if they try Pain is who they meet. Beyond the room where Vulnerable resides   a spiral staircase is seen We call her Love. Miles and miles in length she is and at the top outside her door ~Lies, resides. Lies covers the floor ready to grab anyone untrue Anyone who has managed to get past the gate. The gate we call Trust. Trust isn't easy to get past. Trust is strong, runs deep, and holds true. Trust stands behind desire. Knowing Desire needs to be watched. Desire is our drawbridge she keeps all of us held tight within these walls determined to keep us safe. Trying to keep others out. Desire has weaknesses she knows about. Passion is the moat that circles t...

"Stay strong" Easy to say Difficult to do When everyone Would rather you not. Don't fight to be better than me Fight to set your dreams free We are all trying to believe Something amazing is waiting to be seen. Listen to the emotions of your heart Hear the words it's trying to say. There's a time and place for logic  to get in the way. ~Don't allow it everyday. Bask in the beauty You create. Smile Laugh Listen Love Let go of hate. Life is what you make. Make it worth writing about! Make it a life~ The history books will envy.

Park bench built for two How odd I sit and wait for you. I know you won't come You never do But, I'll sit and wait and hope today is the day, you do. Sounds silly when I say it out loud "Just once,  I'd like to not look for your face in a crowd." I can envision you anywhere I can envision you with anyone. It's seeing you with me ~ That's the key! I hear laughter and I have to look Sadly, it's no longer you. I smell your cologne and follow the scent It leads me to someone, but not to you. I read a sign that reminds me of you Crazy, everything brings me to you ~ but, You. Did you have to go? I've wished you back a million times Then I read the note that I've held onto for so long ~ "Taken too soon but never forgotten" That's still as far as I've gotten.

Everyday,  I live with depression. In every way I fend it off. Some days it creeps up on me Other days~ It hits me full force in my face It's an all consuming darkness It brings with it pain and despair. It engulfs my lungs It pokes holes in my heart Drains my soul. Tells my brain "You are worthless!" It's as if I am fighting to close a door But, depression is almost as strong as me Somedays, it's stronger than me. I'll hide away So none can see Just how much pain Depression can be. I don't want everyone to see How really small and insignificant  I feel to be.

Excuses drip from the walls thick as molasses Lies cover the floor waiting to be believed Shadows dance around the light  that has snuck in through broken windows. Dust covers the frames that once held smiling faces An echo of a child's laugh floats through the air. If not for the echo There would be no sound  anywhere. The spiders and flies   took their dance elsewhere Even this place is too dark  for them. No soul left to fill the void No whisper of any tenant  at all. This place they call Misery ~ No one should want to be. It tries to hold on to others  It tries to belong Misery loves company "They say" But no company would take Misery on!

I wanna believe I wanna see I wanna know There is happily to be. Where do you look When you want to find That next challenge  for your heart  to be blind? You know that feeling... When they first see you? Those eyes light up Those lips part A slight lick of their lips  and you find... This is the moment This is the time This is the one  always on your mind. Where are they though? Where is that moment to be? You finding yourself  Looking too closely? "They" say when you aren't looking you will find the one who will blow your mind. "They" say a lot of things! Some are fun to say too. Some just make me  sad. The one about  "Letting them go  and hope they find their way...back" That one happens too much Makes me wonder... Why they just can't stay.

It's not that I miss you or what we had It's the thought of what was and not really understanding was it that good or really that bad? Did the light burn too bight for a short period of time Or was there no light to speak of, and the whole time...I was just blind? Did you ever see me as I saw you? Fun, funny, beautiful... was that even you? Did I see you or were you what I wanted to see? When you said you loved me was it real? Were you with me  truly?  Or just with me  so you weren't alone? I hate that when I look at you I can't help but smile I lose my breath for a short while I feel as if I am flying. Those things never happened to you? At least not when you looked at me. I don't really miss you Just wish I could have really seen Now I hide from anyone who might want to fall for me I no longer trust I no longer hope I want to just be And be happy with me. I don't want to doubt I d...